u/CarelessDepth950

Hi I’ve never posted here but I’m really struggling. I’m recently married, my wife is an incredible person and I have so much love for her. We’ve been together since high school but we were together for so long I felt like I owe her a child and a marriage yet I’ve never had butterflies or paused when she walks into a room to look at her. And recently on military orders I met a woman slightly older than myself and it was love at first sight. Not only because she was attractive to me but because her personality. I was trying to save a baby bird and out of nowhere she comes up asking if it’s a lizard I laughed and showed her we spent the next hour making a home for it in her room and I asked her if she wanted to hang out with me and my friends. She said yes and when we went out where we ended up talking the whole night and every night after that too. She was collecting bugs throughout the day for the bird to eat (they were wayy to big). She loves just going to explore like if we drive by an interesting river or plant she wants to go out and see it or collect seeds. We share books, talk about art it’s so many things that I don’t have enough time to list them. I love her with everything that I am and every time I think about her it feels like she’s the person I always loved I just hadn’t met her yet and she loves me but I feel obligated to give what is owed for time invested. Please don’t be mean I’m genuinely a nice person, the solution may seem obvious but to me I’m genuinely sad and torn ( for clarification I have not slept with the other woman)