whole mf day ive been fighting the urge not to just go out solo-drink and run away from the world
yesterday i tested if i could last over 24hrs without food for shits n giggles like am i ok lmfao
ive deliberately stayed at home all day to prevent myself saying fck it and doing whatever i fr don’t know what’s happening to me rn
ive been questioning if i had bipolar disorder or not and raised my concerns to my gp yet when i went into a massive depressive episode and was convinced i was gonna kms (had to call the crisis line) i was just given sertraline i swr they don’t care uh
but anyway half of me thinks im faking everything and i feel like im constantly arguing w myself in my head about what im thinking/ feeling even now i feel like a poser and that i shouldn’t be posting on here
i have literally nobody in my life to talk to about any of this and i honestly just feel so lost and frustrated.