u/Careful-Inside-3835

I work with kids and do a lot of standing, bending and lifting (preschool) a few weeks ago I noticed my knee getting tight and stiff. I also noticed that I have knee pain on the outside and the top and recently it got kinda swollen on the top of the knee the place where the thigh is and when I fold the knee and notice that it stiffens. I started wearing a brace and it has helped a lot and the pain has gone but the swelling is still there a bit. It's my first time with knee pain.

I'm 29 F and I know I'm young but I've been single for a while figuring out my career, completing grad school, and figuring out if I want to continue living where I am or move etc. I only have to factor in my job and expenses. I don't have to think about a spouses career or a kids school term. Now at my age some people who are older lol say oh I hope you find someone great, you'll get someone soon etc. I used to say actuallt I'm not looking lol but now I just nod and smile and it stops the topic from becoming heated.

But, not a single one of the 40+ year olds are having a grand time. They have teenagers who hate them, they hate or despise their spouse and complain about them to ME. They hate the expenses they have for everything and if they're divorced with kids oh darling that's an entire rant on it's own based on when you meet them. Then some people also have the burden of aging parents so they look to me and say well it's coming etc and I already lost my dad to cancer. I kinda know that sucks but forcing people into married life isn't really the solution. I've never dreamt of being someones wife really. I wanted kids but that's looking like a big commitment as it is...

Anyway when I hear them talk in the break room I secretly am thrilled I can go home and take a nap lol.

It’s the fear of having a special needs kid. There are so many issues with that because what will they do when you’re dead? How will they look after themselves when you’re old? Will they get bullied at school? Will they become susceptible towards crime or being taken advantage of?

As a kindergarten teacher I have two non verbal boys who not only don’t play with others but also don’t get invited by literal 5 year olds to go on the slide or anything. They sit in a corner and play alone. They don’t speak (not because of shyness) they don’t make eye contact. One of them doesn’t greet their parents. I do strongly believe they should be in a different school where they get social attention.

One of the boys mother is having her second and another is one of 5 babies. I cannot imagine not stopping g after this happens. I wouldn’t trust that it won’t happen again. It’s concerning asf.

I don’t believe I could love a child like that… maybe I could love them but I’d be very disappointed they won’t play or interact with me. As a teacher we are constantly trying to ensure they don’t hurt themselves. They also bite and kick and scratch other kids and us. It’s just not something I want to spend my remaining life ( I’ve not had an easy one doing.