More self control and quiet mind after psychosis
I feel like i was born again as a person after my last psychosis. I used to lose myself in love, lust, or feel good chemicals like food or music, as in, i couldn’t control myself to it.
Now its the opposite, every feel good chemical feels like there is a certain distance and a strong sense of self control to it. Nothing really makes me lose myself in it anymore.
I also have nothing to say and i have no strong opinions or emotions about anything. My mind is blank most of the time. I also used to almost always feel dreamy about how i see things physically, but now i do see things very real and sharply, unlike before.
Sometimes i get certain thoughts but they feel like triggers that i could have in a psychotic state so i dont entertain them.
I also strongly feel like being reborn and everything i used to like or do before, feels foreign to me. It feels like i moved past everything already and i dont feel like dwelling on anything of the past anymore, even when it comes to job occupation.
Is this relatable to anyone here?