u/CaptainDisastrous678

I don't wanna relegate this to an ISTP problem if it's not or normalize something that shouldn't be but I feel like I can't keep friends.

First I overthink. Off the bat the stuff I talk about is unappealing or controversial to most people so there's that.

Second don't like groups, it's too many people to keep track of, just too many personalities at one time.

Third people overall just don't seem to make sense or even strive to, which at least do the second one. By that I mean keep the same standards for yourself that you do for others or attempt to. I attract other introvert types which is great except just I guess how I am, we all are outsider types and lots of the time turns into trauma bonding unfortunately.

fourth if I make a friend through a hobby or some kinda group activity again the group dynamic is in place and it's just a trade off that it's just not that deep of a relationship, so eventually I kinda drop out.

And last I guess when it's just stuff people should be called out for they get offended so I just feel like I have to walk away. I can give and take feedback, many people cannot, I accept that. I won't say stuff directly but I'll allude to it in conversations, just like basic standards, and I don't know how to put it, over time a bunch of stuff adds up that it's not one thing in particular just overall a bad behavior pattern I don't wanna interact with anymore. I don't like when people ghost for no reason but in this case it's usually nothing I haven't made known in other contexts and I just would rather not have a formal conversation about it and distance myself.

Maybe this is specific to being female and people being used to running women over versus if a male said the same thing. And not playing a sexism card, things said are just more authoritative coming from a man culturally. But I feel like I'm maybe the only one at workplaces who actually like...does what I'm supposed to as far as enforcing rules.

Maybe it is from people mauling my boundaries especially growing up but I've flat out had it out with customers and patrons over very basic concepts like we close at this hour. The sign posted says this is not allowed. I don't let dumb crap slide and it seems most people are of the "I don't get paid enough to do this" type. To me I will absolutely do my job over getting in trouble when I don't do it and stuff gets out of hand because I was a wimp when it came to confrontation. And low key I would love to defend myself if anyone ever tells on me by relaying such a stupid story to management, if it ever comes to that which usually it doesn't.

Just bringing this up because it's happened a lot lately and I think it is a pattern. People think I'm defiant when I am in fact the outlier who actually goes by the book. I'm very ok publicly fighting with anyone even and especially if it is my job.