u/Capital_Sample_2102

title. i got bullied hella bad in 7th and 8th grade. your typical bullies i'd say, but yeah it messed with me pretty bad. i was already depressed (not to sound corny, but yeah i was), it got worse then, got even worse later on, and i'm still stuck with it.

once i entered highschool, i gloated over how much better i was doing than them - better grades, making more friends than i ever had back then. it wasn't to their faces, but internally i was pleased.

but i got rejected from my top choice universities (top 2) this month. i saw them on my school alumni account posting about going abroad for university, and they're really happy. feels stupid to care, but i was dreaming about going abroad for years and didn't even have the chance to apply because my dad lost his job for 2 years, and then i got rejected from my top 2 domestic choices.

i mean, everyone deserves to be happy, so good for them, but it's a shame that after everything i'm still so much worse off than the other people i know.

probably doesn't got anything to do with my ocd, but I just wanted to talk about myself and my mom anonymously (and i suppose reddit is the place to go for that)

my mom frustrates me to no end, but i love her so much. she's so mean to me sometimes, but later i just start fantasizing about how she'll feel so horrible about what she did and give me a big hug and tell me that mama loves me so much.

i always imagine what would happen if i transformed into a toddler and ran up to my mom and she'd carry me and hug me and be so happy to get a chance to raise me from the start again, saying i'm so adorable and that i can do whatever i want with my life now.

this is all so embarrassing to say to anyone in real life, but i just wanted to talk about it. i love my mama, as childish as it is to call her that. yeah, i'm 18 and i still call my mom that. i wish she divorced my dad earlier in life (given that she had the salary to do so. it's unfortunate) so i could be happy growing up with just her and my sister

genuine question to everyone who wants to go to mac life sci. I know most people go there after getting rejected from mac health sci, but I don't really see why. I didn't think it was that great of an alternative to health sci aside from the programs being at the same university.

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