u/Capital_Attempt4710

I had a relapse while on vacation and it was great. Partied and danced and had tons of fun every day and night. Then I had a relapse a few weeks later at home and it fucking sucked. Hospital, taper, the whole horrible deal. Now I can't stop thinking about that first relapse. Anhedonic, bored, exhausted. It's been a couple months since the second brutal relapse and aside from the occasional day here or there it's unrelenting shittiness. Fuck.