After 5 years of use, relapsing twice, and what felt like endless insomnia, I’m finally feeling something resembling normal again!
A little background on my kratom experience: I started taking kratom powder as a late teen/early adult after reading about it online. It improved nearly everything about my life for a time, or at least it seemed that way.
However, the situation quickly worsened after I took a job at kratom and CBD shop while I was in community college. For three years, I had taken powder and powder exclusively (around 15gpd); terrified of the extract products that ruined the lives of so many. All it took was one of our regular customers convincing me to try a Feel Free shot, and it got real, real ugly.
By the time I entered university, I had graduated from taking one shot to 4-5, spending upwards of 50-60 dollars a day (primarily on the Kanva Focus + Flow shots) for almost two years. I blew thousands, damaged my relationship, and undeniably damaged by health. It took maxing-out a credit card and being jobless to get me to quit the first time, but, of course, as soon as I got a little money in my hands, I was right back at it.
This time, I was just sick. I couldn’t take the constipation, non-existent libido, and horrible, horrible financial burden. So on March 15th, I jumped, taking just a five gram dose at night to help with the insomnia (it didn’t, but it did at least ease the pain for a little while). After a few weeks, of lowering that nightly dose to around 3.75g, I just jumped.
Sleep is still a challenge, but it’s getting better. I had two nights in a row of deep, restful sleep (last night and the night before) and it felt great! I graduate in 3 weeks, and my life is starting to look-up!
So, if you’re scrolling through right now contemplating quitting or if you’re going through those awful, awful WDs, just know: you can do it. Not only can you do it, but you will thank yourself after.
Please feel reach out if any of you are having a hard time with this process. I know how isolating it can feel when nobody around you understands what you’re going through.