I’m worried I made the whole thing up.
It all started when I went to my friends house. She painted my nails this escalated into me crying about not being able to cross dress.(later at home of coarse after i had to scratch off my nail polish because I couldn’t find any remover) later this same girl was telling me about her sex life. And since I’m a chud and don’t have one I began to talk about feminizing myself in order to live up to it. Before I know it I was making constant jokes about estrogen. These thoughts of me being trans would fluctuate from me being a happy man. To me crying because I would never get to experience being a girl. Eventually i convinced myself that I was trans and I worked out the courage to tell my mom. At this point I was shaving, painting my nails, wearing women’s perfume I used these all as evidence along with the fact historically that I had mostly female friends to convince my mom I was trans. The best way to describe how I’m feeling is that I feel I’m faking but at the same time I doubt I’m faking. However i feel as though I have a pretty good case that I’m faking. I did it to live up to the conversations my friends were having.