u/Candid_Highlight_880

I'm not diagnosed yet (I'm trying to get diagnosed) but I was suggested to by my doctor that I might have endometriosis since my symptoms matched up and PCOS was ruled out.

I've been getting pain under my right rib cage sometimes, which is either dull or sharp. I'm more used to that. But then occasionally, the pain is on my left side under my rib cage, the pain is worse and it hurts when I twist to the side or I breathe in deep. I'm not sure if it's like my colon or my spleen. I'm wondering if anyone has related to this and found endo in that area or something similar. I've been keeping track of all my weird symptoms. My gyno is out of the country currently, so I asked my doctor about my chest pain and slight breathing issues. She brushed it off. Feels like she's just gaslighting me though sometimes. Just so many odd feelings around my chest area now! And I don't wanna just think it's anxiety or something.

I don't want to have to wait so long just to get diagnosed. I don't want to try hormonal therapy just to get diagnosed even though it doesn't guarantee shit. I don't want to be dismissed because my ultrasound doesn't show anything. And I don't want my symptoms brushed off to be anxiety every time. I feel so tired and I feel like something is wrong. I feel ill even if I don't look it. I feel pain every day, and it hurts that either everyone is sick of me talking about it or they don't understand and brush it off easily, or say they relate on periods. My mom will brush my pain off every time, saying I'm fine. I don't feel fine. I want to be fine, but I'm not. And saying that I'm fine won't make me feel fine either. I'm tired of being told that it's all just in my head and it's probably nothing. It doesn't feel like nothing. Everything gets worse each day, each period, and each month. I don't get how anyone with worse symptoms than me, who are diagnosed and undiagnosed, can get through life, because I'm already so exhausted and frustrated. It's come to the point where I just can't bare talking to anyone and I want to isolate myself. I'm graduating soon, I should be happy, and be able to live freely. But I'm not, I'm just sitting here every day, so tired, that I can't bring myself to do anything or to study, and I feel like I'm failing. I'll have some good days each week even with pain, and that gives me so much hope, but it hurts on the bad days, and I don't know how to keep up. I don't WANT to have endometriosis, but I want to know it's not just in my head and I'm not being dramatic.

My friend and I want to go studying for physics over the weekend and as much as I wanna go after school on a Friday, my dad has work in the afternoon, so I'm thinking of Saturday or Sunday morning. Is that reasonable? I heard it gets really busy in the library during week days already. We also considered a cafe if the library is too busy, but of course, libraries are kinda better.