u/Candid_Challenge_507

hey y’all. to preface, i’ve been dx with adhd for 5 years now, dx with cptsd for 4 years, and self dx autism for 6 mo now. i had a meltdown (this is the first one i’ve recognized as an autistic meltdown but it’s definitely not my first meltdown) because of my husband trying to argue with me. i yelled and screamed at him to stop talking and he wouldn’t quit. i had to run to my bathroom and plug my ears so i couldn’t hear him. i slammed the door shut and hit it every time he tried talking to me. i’ve been sobbing on and off since.

it’s also the week before my period, so the pmdd did not help (just started trying the pepcid + allegra trick someone here posted about a couple of days ago). it’s been about an hour since it happened and luckily my husband left the house for a couple of hours to go to a baseball game.

every time i have a meltdown, my day is gone. i have no energy to do anything. i’ve been stuck in the same spot for the past hour. i have no idea what to do now. i’m stuck because i need to shower badly, but i need coffee and don’t have any creamer. i have all of the ingredients to make it, but my body just can’t move. i have no idea what to do when he gets home too.

Hey y’all! As a kid, I lived on the North Shore of Oahu (Pupukea specifically, from 2008-2014) and I’ve been craving the salmon poke with the mayo based sauce for over a decade now. I’ve tried a couple of recipes online and none of them really compare to what I would get from Foodland. I’m sure y’all know the only poke served on the mainland has hardly even an ounce of fish with a bunch of random toppings. If anyone has a recipe that’s similar that they’re willing to share, I would greatly appreciate it ❤️

I haven’t been back since and I miss the NS so much. Definitely one of the most tight knit communities I’ve ever had the pleasure to be a part of. Very grateful to have experienced growing up and taking care of the most beautiful place on earth. Miss the smell of the shrimp trucks heading towards Kahuku so much too! Apologies for the tangent, but I’ve been feeling super nostalgic lately. :,) Thanks!