I hate my life right now
For about a year i really liked this girls from my class and also from my friend group. I could tell she also had some interest in me especially when she was drunk at parties. During the past couple of months i started getting really attracted to her so i wanted to make my move. At this party when we were drunk i asked her to come with me outside to get some fresh air and their i confessed my feeling to a girl for the first time this was the first girl i have ever really fallen for.
She confessed that she shared similar feelings towards me and we made out and agreed to try this and go on a date. We went out and it was great she laughed i bought her a flower we made out and even agreed upon a second date. During the following week we hung out almost every day we made out and even did more intimate things. This was one of the best weeks of my life.
The second week we date was also great and very similar both of us were enthusiastic about each other. This week however i started noticing things i didnt really like about her. She would get a lot of attention from other guys from my school and even when we were outside on dates. She seemed to enjoy this a lot. She also started being less enthusiastic about texting me and wanting to hang out making up more excuses not to hangout. On Friday we hung out with a group of friends and on Saturday we saw each other for a little bit then she gave me the first sign that she was losing interest. She told me that she wasnt sure this would workout because she would be gone all summer traveling around and that she isnt sure if she is in love with me.
On sunday we were also supposed to hang out however she canceled last minuet that night i tried calling her and she didnt answer she called me an hour later and it we didnt say much to each other. After which i called her an confronted her on why she seemed as if she was losing interest she told me she was and that she was t ready to get into a relationship so we should stop seeing each-other. This broke my heart because i really liked this girl and i thought we could have had something special together.
She want to continue being friends but i will never be able to see her as just a friend. I hate the fact that she doesnt love me and i hate the fact i have to see her everyday in school now. Today was very awkward seeing her we are even in the same friend group maybe i made i mistake but i really fell for her