Hello guys, I’ve been thinking that I might be into men… problem is… I’m terrified of men 💀 I live in Mexico for context, it’s a country with high levels of violence against women and LGBT+ ppl… and a huge macho culture.
I wanted so bad to convince myself to just like girls for my safety and to stay being seen as a cis straight male by people who don’t know me lol….But ofc, one can not choose their sexual orientation
I would like to explore (if any bi/pan guys are here, I’d very much appreciate all the experience or advice you may wanna give🙏)
I don’t know really where my romantic/sexual orientation goes, and would like to date or flirt casually, but I find it scary, specially with men… because opening up about being trans in here feels very scary, and being trans and bisexual? Damn
I’ve never had a girlfriend and have the itch to try it… but found myself wanting to have something with a guy again. I tried to fit masculine standards at the beginning of my transition and now that I’m thinking of being more queer in my looks and life I feel better, but really scared.
It’s such a mind fuck to be a trans man, who is afraid of men, who is attracted to men, and dislikes most men because there are so many dirty macho homophobic douchbags 🙂↕️ *sighs*
Soo I want to explore more before deciding to come out as a queer man, idk why but I have quite the internalized homophobia (mostly the fear of being perceived as weak, feminine and queer)
Most ppl already assume I’m gay, I think I’m just paranoid lol, I would love to be openly trans at least in some spaces but that’s a whole other topic… it’s a extremely misunderstood topic and I like living my life as a man… but idk when I’m supposed to disclose it for dating or casual stuff.