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And my self esteem, especially as a mom. He does not criticize me directly, but tells me like a hundred times a day that “we” (meaning I) need to be more careful. Even if our daughter gets hurt on his watch he immediately starts to lecture me how to prevent such a sotuation the next time. Even if nothing happens, he starts to lecture me to be more careful. He’s very very overprotective of her and I get it why (he grew up with foster parents who were not the most loving, never had any contact with her bio parents). Our marriage is very strained, so I guess it’s just the tip of the iceberg but it’s a constant pain for me. I have a lot of self-doubt, I never feel that my attempts being a good mom is enough for myself, although I try very very hard, against all the shit how I was raised. Sometimes it would be so good to hear a few nice words, if he could validate my efforts (like breastfeeding at 1.5 years, helping her to sleep even if it means that I cannot do anything as she’s a contact sleeper, I’m taking her to various programs, if she’s fed up with the stroller I put her in a sling and bring her around on my back, even at 10.75 kg (23.7 lbs).) But it just never seem to be good enough for my husband. I am never enough for him. He’s also always mad that I cant remember things, although I told him that being woken up 3-4-5-whatever times kills your cognitive function. He thinks that it’s just an excuse for being careless and dumb.

I’ve had HS for 23 years now, I had it in my groins and pits but lately, it migrated onto my chests too. Plus since I was pregnant, small colorless hairs appeared on my breasts which I can pull out by hand. These follicles tend to clog like crazy, so it worsened my HS further….

Has this happened to anybody? Will they disappear after breastfeeding? This is just too much for me, I’m fed up with HS and hairs and all 🤯🤯