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I just put an online form In to see a doctor, and it’s done and I feel so relieved. I don’t know how the appointment will go (nhs) but I wish I did this sooner. I’m really scared because I’ve gained 90% of the weight back and I would classify myself as just bulimic now, and I’m just worried they won’t take me seriously. I wish I got help for my anorexia before it got to this. I’ve had such a bad day and in a fit of tears, I typed out the form and I was always so scared to but I just want to get better. Bulimia is affecting my mental health so much more than anorexia and I’m in a spiral of thinking ‘what if I got help earlier?’. It’s probably gonna take ages to even see someone but still, I’m glad I got the courage to do it.

Honoured my extreme hunger yesterday, without it turning into a b/p. I ate a lot of food, but I was just hungry and I was mindful and made it clear with myself I wouldn’t. Today, I’ve had breakfast, snacks and lunch and my friend asked if I wanted to get food soon. I’m quite full right now and I usually eat dinner later, but I said yes anyway. I don’t have to eat it all at the restaurant if I’m full, I can take it home, but I’m excited😸