Anyone got back in the closet and is more or less happy afterwards? I'm lost...
I'm 28, and I was a year on HRT and my parents found out. They wanted to first kill themselves because of it, but didn't follow through thankfully.
My wife was okay-ish in the beginning, but just today, during a fight, she said she's happy that my parents are also against it, because she's disgusted of what my body is becoming. Whenever she sees my boobs she gets angry that I did this to myself.
I know I'm trans. I love all the changes I had. It's the first time in my life, that I was actively liking myself and wanting to take care of myself. I even had "spare love" to share with everyone around me.
But yeah... Life is weird sometimes.
I don't know what I should do now... I feel like I have to detransition for the sake of the others, but it feels like I'm killing myself.
Like tbh, I would really wish I was simply gone...
edit:
does anyone have recommendations for therapist which can also help with "detransitioning". or help me feel more cis again... if so, please send me a dm.