how the hell do you fit in at new job with neurotypicals
i guess this is just a rant to express my frustrations because i feel like i can’t win. i 25f started working at a restaurant part time as dish washing which i like because the pay is good and i can work in my own space.
but i’ve found i have a hard time clicking with my co workers that are neurotypical since the environment is so fast paced, there’s only time for small talk one-liners that i either don’t process fast enough or i just don’t have anything to add because it’s related to other departments.
i do make sure i say hey to everyone, ask how their day is going/ what they have planned for the evening, make casual remarks (like i like their shoes or something) ect, but i’ve noticed even then it’s usually one sided and people don’t really talk to me or ask me questions afterwards and yet i still get called quiet 😭
or sometimes they’ll jokingly say “i feel so bad we must be sooo weird to you” and it’s literally them just talking about music or something really mundane? and when i do try to make jokes back it’s taken too literal or just reads wrong and i get “that look” if you know what i mean. it really does feel like there’s just another language or inside joke that i don’t understand and a little isolating sometimes.
don’t get me wrong i’m not there to make friends or make it my social life but i tried matching their level because i’ve noticed it is like that for a lot of them so i guess i wanted to try to fit in more with that work culture but damned if i do, damned if i don’t.
this is the first time i’m not working with other neurodivergents so i’ve been very lucky in the past where i haven’t had these challenges and just clicked with everyone right away so this feels hard :-(