u/BuzzcutRat

I became an obsessed fan back in 2016 when they became mainstream.... I listened to all the past albums and all and I was a true fan. Followed the hyatus religiously and screamed when trench happened. I went to the trench tour (can't remember if it had a name, sorry). I stopped listening or being so attached to them when scaled and icy came out (i still bought the online show tho). Not because I was deceived with the album or anything, I like the album, not their b.est (imo) but still nice! After this (for external? stuff) I stopped listening to them at all. I knew they released some music and listened to some but didn't pay much attention to it. I was focused on other irl stuff. (remember all the blurryface and trench happened when I was finishing high school so... plenty of time... not that much at uni...).

Where I'm from, the last year of high school I had to do a project, like final degree project in uni... (its not even the compulsory high school its like 2 years preparation for the entry exams to uni). And I chose to do it about all the lore of twenty one pilots, from no phun intended all the way to trench. So I was familiar with the lore. (i scored a 10/10 btw on that, kiss kiss).

I tried reading all the "new" stuff (new for me) that came out after trench but I just can't keep up with it... Can someone explain EASILY as if i was dumb, what the whole lore is now?

I'm in the talking stage with someone. She's nice and all. The other day I met my ex (we are currently friends because we dated when we were 15 lol. We're now 24F and 25M and he's in a healthy relationship, so please don't think he's biased by anything (or at least thats what i think).

Im bisexual (not that someone cares but maybe people get confused), and well, im talking to this girl daily. We matched on tinder, but I didnt "like" her because of her pics, i liked her because I knew who she was from uni and seeing her around.

We've been talking since january or even december, can't remember. But for the past two or three months she's been very attentive, nice, caring, and well, that made me kind of "like" her. So i told my ex about her blah blah and he was like omg thats so nice please make out (Meaning he's happy for me, or thats what i get from that reaction). Then he asked me for a pic of her, and i showed him. And his face changed drastically. She's not the prettiest girl out there, she's cute but, i don't want to sound like a bad person, i'm being objective, she's not pretty pretty, but her actions and her way of treating me and all made me like her. Ignoring her looks. Like it made me see her pretty. And ofc, i also care for her and treat her the same way. There's also been some slight flirting lately, but very light.

I'm taking it slow because well, I have BPD and I know my limitations and I don't want to repeat stuff I did in the past so. She has no idea about mental health (meaning she hasnt had to deal with it, so good) and I was very cautious explaining my shit. Turned out she understood everything and she respects every boundary I put. She understands when I disappear for hours and well. She's great.

But the comment my ex made, has me thinking. he also pointed out that she looks like shes a terrible kisser. So maybe now im biased by this comment too....

My last relationship left me traumatised and im still getting over some things of it, thats why Im also going very slow.

I like this girl, that's a fact. But I'm unsure if I should keep going or stop it. because of the way i "reacted" when my ex said those things.