u/Busy-Zucchini502

Hi, I (19F) am about to start treatment for the second time at Renfrew Boston. They recommended residential, but I am going to try PHP first. I currently am not at a healthy weight and I know I need to gain some, but I am EXTREMELY worried about how much they’re going to give me to eat. If it’s a lot all at once, I’m going to gain very quickly and I genuinely don’t feel like that will be conducive to a long term recovery. I know you can’t really do anything about what they feed you.

Has anyone done PHP and can you tell me what it’s like? Any advice to soothe this anxiety?? I’m genuinely freaking out.

Hi. I (19F) am at my breaking point. I am >!5’5!< and weigh >!112 pounds!< or so, which I realize isn’t as low as what others deal with but I can’t walk. I can’t function. I can barely lift my hair dryer and I’m scared. My therapist is making me seek treatment, I already did Renfrew IOP in 2022 and it helped for a bit but I relapsed badly this year. I am doing an intake with renfrew in a few days but I feel like I don’t need it or I’m not sick enough and I’m also extremely scared for either residential or PHP. Does anyone who has done either have any advice for starting out? I’m scared to miss out on my life, I’m a college student who’s been given so many great opportunities for this summer. Please give me any advice you may have, it’s bad out here.

On top of that, I just met a guy who I really really like. He’s so sweet and great to me. He doesn’t know I have an eating disorder at all, how the hell am I supposed to spring this up on him? We’re not even dating but if we start dating I feel like he deserves to know, especially if I start treatment. But I don’t want this to turn him away.

Thank you for any advice you can give me🫶🏼