Going through a heartbreak need advice
I really need advice. I’m going through a heartbreak and I feel like my world is ending. I really want to move on but part of me loves him and is hurting so much. Me (25F) live in upstate NY and my bf (27F) lives in Philly going through a breakup. We both are doing PhDs and in a long distance relationship (4 hours away) We have been together for almost 2 years but officially dating for 3 months. I have to say He met and spent a lot of time with my family also lives in Philly so whenever I drove back to Philly it’s always easy for him to come see my family with me. His parents live in New Jersey, and for the past 2 years I have never met anyone in his family even tho they know of me. I really want to move on because I know this relationship isn’t right for both of us. Because it took him more than a year to introduce me to his friends and to commit into a relationship with me. And there are many times he said to me he doesn’t see himself getting married to me. When he broke up with me he said we both should see other people and that I deserve someone who loves me from day 1. And I would have no self control or respect for myself I would be mad and drive 4 hours back to Philly immediately and I would chose the worse time to drive back to see him and talk to him or I would threaten him that I would hurt myself. Our relationship is very unhealthy we both cried a lot when we saw each other last time. As of now he has already deleted me from all of his social media. I know he loves me but he said this relationship isn’t right for him because he doesn’t love me the same way I do and doesn’t see us getting married. And I do agree that we are not healthy and I am really sad because after 2 years together he wants to give up on me that easy and I just really need advice on how to move on.