u/Busy-Leg936

I love my husband. He is very close to his family, especially his mom, aunt, and cousins. They are always on a FaceTime call when I wake up. He expects me to say hi and have a conversation with them every day on FT and I don’t know what’s wrong with me but it gives me anxiety.
We come from Punjabi culture, I grew up in the states and my husband grew up in India. His mom stays with us for a few months out of the year and when she comes I’m always on edge and anxious. She’s really nice and she loves me but I don’t know why I feel this way. They are all nice people but the pressure I feel to talk to them is too much for me. I start feeling anxious before his mom is about to come stay with us too, just anticipating her presence at our apartment.

I’m not too close with my family, but I do have a 10-20 minute call with my mom and sister almost everyday. I don’t talk to my dad and I feel guilty for not picking up my grandfathers call sometimes too. I am diagnosed with general anxiety disorder, adhd, and major depressive disorder and I’m in treatment but what is this feeling? Does it go away? I know it upsets my husband when he’s trying to approach me with the phone to say hi to 3-5 of his relatives on FaceTime call and I start running away or begging him silently please spare me this time. Even though all I have to do is smile and say satsriakal how are you and it’s all over within 5 minutes. What is wrong with me 😔

I love my husband. He is very close to his family, especially his mom, aunt, and cousins. They are always on a FaceTime call when I wake up. He expects me to say hi and have a conversation with them every day on FT and I don’t know what’s wrong with me but it gives me anxiety.
We come from Punjabi culture, I grew up in the states and my husband grew up in India. His mom stays with us for a few months out of the year and when she comes I’m always on edge and anxious. She’s really nice and she loves me but I don’t know why I feel this way. They are all nice people but the pressure I feel to talk to them is too much for me. I start feeling anxious before his mom is about to come stay with us too, just anticipating her presence at our apartment.

I’m not too close with my family, but I do have a 10-20 minute call with my mom and sister almost everyday. I don’t talk to my dad and I feel guilty for not picking up my grandfathers call sometimes too. I am diagnosed with general anxiety disorder, adhd, and major depressive disorder and I’m in treatment but what is this feeling? Does it go away? I know it upsets my husband when he’s trying to approach me with the phone to say hi to 3-5 of his relatives on FaceTime call and I start running away or begging him silently please spare me this time. Even though all I have to do is smile and say satsriakal how are you and it’s all over within 5 minutes. What is wrong with me 😔

I know lip filler blindness is real because I had it. Most of those girls have or have had their lip filler migrate. It’s really common, and you don’t always see it on your own face.

I know Mikayla and Jessi have brought it up. Anyone else dealt with this? I got mine dissolved. I notice it in everyone now when it’s migrated and maybe no one told them so they stick with it and don’t get it dissolved 😭

I diagnosed myself with DSPD based on this:

I have always struggled to fall asleep for as long as I can remember. I would HAVE to keep myself occupied until I felt sleepy enough otherwise I would be up while the world sleeps around me and I would be lonely and depressed.

I wake up with no motivation, kind of already dreading the day.

I’m in my early 30s F, already have a MDD, GAD, and ADHD diagnosis.

I have been told over and over again to practice good sleep hygiene but I tried all that and it Does. Not. Work.

After 8pm, this sinking feeling starts to set in, a sadness creeps in. I go to sleep at 4am on a good day. Usually it’s around 6am. When I hear the birds start to chirp, my body starts winding down and I fall asleep. I wake up between 11am and 1pm.

I have a 10,000 lux light therapy slate. I use it sometimes, not daily because some days I genuinely wake up with zero motivation to be a functioning person. I hate it when people tell me I am self sabotaging because I am desperate to be better and I have been seeking help. I can’t keep living like this. I feel so frustrated and alone.

Please let me know if your experience has been anything like this. I would love some advice, feedback, comment, or to even hear your struggles/journey with this.