The beginning and ending of a very fast, Situationship
So, for context, I’m a 22-year-old gender-fluid individual. I don’t think it’s necessary to mention, but I haven’t been on Reddit in a while and I’m pretty sure my user and avatar are connected to a part of me from when I was transitioning. However, that’s not relevant to this conversation.
A few days ago, I had met someone and everything was great like almost out of a movie set and he and I had hit it off very quickly now I suggested let’s go on a date yesterday since we had met on Sunday of last weekend, that would give us a whole week to talk a little bit more and get to know each other so he had agreed on the date and it was planned that we would go out for dinner and a movie and I had suggested because I’d be the one willing to pay for it that Hey let’s get a hotel as well, but I didn’t suggest that until a little further down the line of the week because over the phone over text, he would say how bad he wanted to cuddle and you know obviously the other things but they weren’t necessary if nothing else cuddling was on board alongside that, though I had decided to make him a gift basket because his birthday was today Mother’s Day and we were gonna be together before Mother’s Day and spend the night now everything was great leading up to yesterday. Amazing conversations he would come and see me at work he brought me flowers the whole 9 yards and I tend to let my emotions lead me blind for disclaimer, but we get to the room. Everything’s great until it’s not around later on in the night I was saying like Hey like I think we should go out to dinner and he was agreeing however he said he would want to go pick up the food and I was like OK so I had a very amazing outfit that I still wanted to put on. I just didn’t wanna waste it and yeah, I was like OK I’ll still just get dressed up or whatever and we can still go back with the food or whatever like you know people get dressed up to go out and get groceries for example now upon me getting dressed I just kind of felt an energy shift but I tried to push it aside and think oh I might be overthinking it so we get to the restaurant I ended up saying like you know let’s just stay and enjoy the time like it was a lively restaurant. You know it was really nice so we sat down and the whole time he was on his phone. I was a little hurt and upset and I just didn’t understand why and then when we ordered food they brought it out not too long after something was wrong with his food, they took it back so I stopped eating mine and I was like hey when they bring your food back out correctly, we can go back to the room because I just felt as though like I was alone rather than sitting with someone at the table.
So we go back to the room and we eat and then like we go to lay down and I just felt the energy just get even more odd and I’m just like I don’t know what’s going on, but I don’t like it so I ended up falling asleep, but I kept waking up in and out of sleep because I had just felt off I decided in my mind that when the time came a little earlier on later I was going to get up and get dressed and pack my things and just you know enjoy the rest of the morning or whatever and then go home and just kinda decompress and kinda talk to him a little bit later when I was in a better headspace, so as I was getting up later on that morning around like 78 Ish, I ended up putting my AirPods and listening to music because music is my therapy and it helps me when I can’t really put my emotions into words and it just helps so a little bit after he ended up getting up keep in mind. I was very quiet so I didn’t startle him or wake him a little while after I had finished, he got up, pulled himself together and put his stuff back in his bag now I’m just sitting over on the couch in the room, listening to music in my AirPods. I turned my music down. He was saying that he was going to go and take his gift basket. I made him and his bag with his personal belongings down to the car I had nodded my head and said OK now I’m sitting there for a little bit and I’m like OK well he’s not back and I go to check his location and he’s still sitting in his car and I’m like that’s odd so I step up to the window and he can’t see me but I can see him and he’s just sitting in his car. I’m like OK well I’ll just wait and then he pulled up to the front took his key up to the desk and he left and turned his location off and responding to my text to my calls now I really have been laying here at home all day with this feeling of so many questions and so much not even just anger just confusion disappointment, and just ultimately stuck in a world of emotion because I really don’t know what I have could’ve done so wrong and the fact that I couldn’t even get clarity would make things better and I wouldn’t have been so upset about the financial part but nothing and then it’s the fact that he still I’m pretty sure it’s going to come to the job where I work at because he is a regular there and I would hope he wouldn’t try to talk to me because I really don’t think this is forgivable, but I’d like to hear other people’s opinion so that’s why I brought it here because it’s just pooling in my mind and it’s not going anywhere…..