I have so much to say… but we’re not even together
I wish I could just say it out loud. I wish I could tell you I love you without holding it back. I wish I could admit that I’m already scared of losing you even before anything even truly begins. That somewhere along the way, you became someone I didn’t expect to matter this much to me. I’m scared that one day you’ll leave, and I won’t even get the chance to hold you close like I’ve imagined. I’m scared that all these words I’ve kept inside will just stay stuck in my chest, never reaching you. I want to tell you how I feel. I want to be honest. But I also don’t know if I should… because we’re not even “us” yet, and maybe I’m already feeling too much, too soon.
So I keep asking myself: Should I say it… or should I keep it to myself before I ruin something that isn’t even fully mine yet?