First is I lost connection with the person I like. But my fault din. Part of me is thinking to move forward na rin but the memories keeps on coming back and yung urge na “ayusin mo, kaya mo yan”, but I also want to respect her decision na cut-ties na.
Then this job is idk if i’m doing good or lutang na ‘ko lagi. I’m lost at everything, I feel like a robot na nakaautopilot nalang din. My mind is not working, parang kapag may questions bigla nalang magsasalita bibig ko then after non hindi ko na alam if tama ba mga nasasabi and nagagawa ko. The environment feels like they’re progressing then here I am parang nasa bottom lang, hindi na umangat. I like the challenge sa work though, first job din. But idk, last 2 weeks naman medyo okay ako, nakakasabay, but these days parang “bahala nalang” motto ko. Fuck it. Almost everyone says na im doing good sa work but I feel like they’re just motivating me and it’s not working kase pakiramdam ko nga and alam ko sa sarili ko na left behind na ako. Mema gawa lang sa work.