Hi everyone.
Why do I feel like I am failing at every point t in my life?.
I have health issues, my son has autism and I suspect I have undiagnosed adhd.
I have always had to be the sensible one who sorts everything for family etc, and have always been told I handle everything brilliantly and am very strong, but I'm burnt out.
I can't find joy in much at all, feel defeated every morning with the never ending list of things I have to do and tasks just keep being added on.
I end up with so much on my mind, with the mental load taking its toll I end up doing nothing. I need help I am drowning
People around me tell me not to worry so much, and things will get done. But if I don't do them, who will?
I have so much responsibility with my autistic son and a parent with dementia and very serious health issues of my own which I feel have to take a back seat at the moment. I just want to curl up in a ball and not get up again.
Sorry if this all seems a mess I don't even know if there is any solution but I need to get it out.