Hi so im just curious about others experiences. I have been struggling with cycling mood issues for about 3 years and its progressively gotten worse. I thought it was 100 percent related to my birth control, and when I quit it it just got worse. My therapist thinks I have PMDD, GP said I could have some mild bipolar but wasn't sure, and a psych said I have an anxiety disorder and ruled out bipolar disorder. I am now just confused lol.
I seem to have massive mood shifts anywhere from 1-4 days. I definitely get worse/depressed days leading up to my period, but that's not the only time, as it happens throughout my cycle as well. The depression just comes out of nowehere and get massively suicidal/ crazy crying and self destructive, then days later I feel perfectly fine! It could be due to hormone shifts but usually PMDD is strictly in the luteal phase i've heard.
Other times I either feel normal, or get a big burst of energy and I'm super happy, energized and productive, want to start new hobbies, reinvent my life etc. It feels like i drank a load of caffeine or something. I dont think its severe enough to be hypomania though, and i'm never destructive or super impulsive, just hyper, confident and happy. Like I have bad insomnia during these periods and can't sleep and feel generally good and energized the next day but also that could be running on adrenaline. Like last month I barely slept all night, then went out with 2 different friends and had enough energy to work on my essay until midnight, and felt great the next day too, then crashed. other days I sleep all night and im so tired all day and the world is grey and sad.
I was prescribed Prozac for the anxiety and the second day I felt almost euphoric, sat down and finished my old paintings that I haven’t touched in years. I had some side effects really quickly so I stopped after 3 days, then spiraled into suicidal thoughts and went a little crazy. my libido went crazy high for a while. It’s been weeks since I stopped, but my depression has gone away and I’ve been cycling between high moods and tiredness/irritability. High moods being super confident, feeling sexy, feel like almost cocky and just very happy. no crazy impulsive behaviors though. I start a whole bunch of projects and then give it up when I crash and feel like shit a few days later lol. just glad the depression has seemed to ease for now