Vyvanse and cocaine
Hi everyone,
I (25F) have been diagnosed with adhd about 2 years ago. For one year now, I’ve been taking my medication (vyvanse 20mg) everyday, but I’ve been heavily struggling with the side effects. I would get 3 hours of feeling good per day, for 12h of pure doom and despair. I tried everything - changing molecule, eating breakfast, drinking water, exercising, nothing helped. This led me to start drinking a lot and doing cocaine 2-3 times a week. I would go out to clubs and get high / drunk to be able to handle the rough vyvanse comedown…
I’ve came to the realization that Vyvanse is ruining my life. I literally never feel good unless i’m getting high of stimulants. I’ve been reminiscing on my life before I started taking it, and my focus and productivity was so much better. I was seeking less dopamine and could handle ‘boring’ tasks so much better. Its like Vyvanse puts gas in the tank, but the car is driving with no direction. I’ve been productive, yes, but thinking clearly is really hard and I’ve been taking bad decisions non stop
So I took the decision to quit cold turkey
It’s now day 2 without taking it, I feel pretty sad and unmotivated, mostly stuck in bed contemplating my life choices.
Has anyone been through a similar journey? Do you have any tips, stories, advice to share?