EH: physical discomfort and guilt
hii I have never posted on Reddit before, let alone in this group. but I am in recovery. I never went to treatment and I don’t have a team or really anyone I can speak to about this. I have a therapist but she isn’t specialized in ED’s and most of the time I feel like she really doesn’t understand. I am scared to tell her about how much I am eating because I know she would say something that makes me feel guilty.
anywaysss I was in quasi-recovery for a few months and have recently been trying to go “all-in” and honor all my mental hunger. some days I feel like I just can’t stop eating. I’m not underweight but am still missing my period.
the thing is I eat until I am so full that I feel sick and then I immediately start feeling super anxious and guilty. this happened today and I ended up cancelling plans to go out with friends because I just feel so anxious and bloated. I can’t imagine dressing up or trying to socialize.
I guess my question here is how helpful is it to honor extreme mental hunger if it ends up making me feel sick and want to isolate?
just the thought of food makes me feel nauseous.
I think im just looking for some reassurance. is this normal? what’s been helpful for you?