I SH Everytime I leave a relationship.
Last night I got broken up with in a pretty brutal way, the relationship was only two years but for the first time in as far back as I can remember I felt like I was connected with someone else and happy with it. And then it ended.
It's my fault, mainly at least. so I'm sitting here SHing because it's the only thing that feels like I'm receiving what I deserve and the pain is grounding. I'm not proud of it, I would never encourage anybody to self harm but when It comes to me I just don't apply that same kind of logic, instead I just do it, I don't put much thought or consideration into it.
I'm probably more screwed up then I realize I don't think many people go through break ups like I do and immediately jump to causing themselves bodily harm.