Relapse + WD + Light At The End Of The Tunnel
I’ve been off and on a heavy 7OH habit this past year (1000 + MG Daily). My previous attempts at quitting always relied on substituting 7OH with other substances. I’m an addict so if there’s anything that gives me that flip of a switch in my mind and mood I go overboard. In any case 7OH has been the substance that has dug its hooks in further than anything i’ve ever been hooked on before. I’ve had my battles with a lot of things, but my god 7OH is the most soul crushing and joy sucking thing i’ve ever come across. I mean, my 7OH habit has been more expensive than my previous blow habit even. BUT, i’m here to say that you CAN get through this, and it does get better.
I recently relapsed again, going straight to 1000mg of 7OH a day for a month after a failed attempt at quitting (lasted 1 week). This time around made a plan, got some subs from Quick MD, Gabapentin, and Liposomal vitamin c. The Dr. wanted me to take subs for two weeks, but I only took a full dose day one, half dose day two, and quarter dose day three, in addition to loading up on Gabapentin and the Liposomal Vitamin C. I STILL felt like I was going to die the first few days, couldn’t eat, threw up anything I tried to eat, felt like I had to manually breath, had anxiety, sweats, no sleep, etc. I started to turn a corner around day 5, but PAWS and total lack of motivation and joy was kicking my ass.
The last couple days I was just laying in bed feeling sorry for myself and thinking it would never get better, but today, day 7, I made myself get up, clean my shit room up, and what I feel has been most important, get my ass outside and get some intense cardio/jump rope in. I’m not completely heeled, but after today I feel like I can see that person I was before all this shit.
What ever hole you’re in with this, don’t let it keep a hold of you. There is a way to get out. It’s not easy, but it’s not impossible either. I’m still in the trenches but I am finally feeling a little more like myself, and feeling pissed and ready to fight this nasty shit a little more each day, one battle after another. I just wanted to say that you CAN fight this crap. Make a plan, what ever it is that works for you, you don’t have let this shit control your life. No matter how hard those first few days are, or those weeks of PAWS are, don’t just sit on your ass. Fight it, try to get up and do shit, get some cardio or work outs in to boost your mental health. You can do this, there is a light at the end of the tunnel.