I had ASD and GAD and have a part-time job in my University as a Student Assistant and when I am on my hometown, also helps manning our family small grocer business.
Just always observed these two kinds of behavior I display on my workplaces. When I am on my student assistant job, I feel enthusiastic, calm and even do beyond what is expected or requested to me by my superiors and I really enjoyed working in the office. But when I am on my hometown assisting our family business, I always feel agitated, angry and have a bad demeanor that I earned a reputation in the barangay for being a mean person (which could have helped cementing my demeanor due to a “us vs. them” mentality).
I don’t really understand why I exhibit such difference in behavior in my jobs. Maybe it is because I am not paid by my family to assist them in the business, or I do not really like the culture and people in my hometown (I am just moved in to our hometown a few years ago from Manila so it is just a culture change), or it is because I have to constantly interact with people and sometimes multiple people all at the same time which drains my energy and feel some sort of sensory overload, compare that to my job in the University where I don’t face the same kind of sensory overload, only face a few employees, and where I am paid and well treated in the office.
Is my behavior valid and what steps should I do to mitigate such behavior?