Found out a friend removed/blocked me everywhere out of the blue
This friend has actually ghosted me before, so part of me really isn't too surprised. We used to talk quite a bit, then one day she just disappeared after removing me everywhere online. It was pretty sudden and I wasn't sure if perhaps I had done or said something insensitive, so I sent her a final message, thanking her for spending time with me, and apologised if I did/said anything to cause her to break contact with me.
I didn't want or expect a reply, but I did actually get one... over 2 years later. She responded to it out of the blue last year, apologising for vanishing, ensuring me I didn't do/say anything and she was going through some things at the time. I was surprised to hear from her again, but pleased that we seemed to be able re-bond again shortly after that, at least for a brief period.
Things soon started settling back into how they were in the lead up to her vanishing from my life. I didn't see her as often, she didn't respond to me much on Discord/texts any more, and we kinda started to drift again. For the past 4-5 months we haven't really spoken much at all. She last sent me some texts early last month to tell me she's going through some things right now, and dealing with less than kind people in her life (and assured me again I am not one of them). I didn't respond to these texts as she seemed pretty adamant that she didn't really want to speak at the time, just giving me an update on how she was, so thought I'd give her space.
Just yesterday I decided to reach out and see how she's doing since I haven't heard from her since early April, and... I noticed she's removed and/or blocked me everywhere, so I don't really have any way of contacting her any more.
Part of me kinda expected this to happen again, but... For some reason it still kinda stings? We genuinely got on really well, or so I thought at least. I don't expect to ever hear from her again, and even if I do, I'm not sure I'll respond again, it feels a bit defeating having the same friend disappear on me twice already. And it almost seemed like she maybe regretted reaching out to me again? Considering how fast things seemed to fizzle out this time around, anyway.
It just sucks not getting any closure on what seemed like a good friendship just disappearing, just like that. And I feel like I'll never know if it WAS in fact something I said/did (or perhaps didn't say/do), or if it's something else. Like, would things have been different if I did respond her to last month? I know there's no point dwelling on "what ifs", but at the very least I hope I didn't hurt her in any way, and wherever she is now, she's at least doing alright.