Finally starting subs
Tomorrow morning I’m attempting to start Suboxone and finally get off 7-OH for good. I’ve been taking around 100mg/day and I’m exhausted. I’ve tried before but never made it far enough into withdrawal to actually start the Suboxone because the fear and discomfort would make me cave.
My last 15mg dose was around 12:30pm today and the plan is to not take any more and induce tomorrow morning once I’m in real withdrawal. I was prescribed up to 16mg/day but I’m planning to start low and go slowly.
I’m honestly terrified of precipitated withdrawal and scared I’m still going to feel awful even after taking it. But I also know I can’t keep living like this. The mental obsession, constantly dosing, planning life around it, hiding it, withdrawing, relapsing. I’m done.
What’s giving me hope is that I’m leaving for a wellness retreat tomorrow and I’ll be away from my partner who actively uses and is a huge trigger for me. I’ll be around supportive women, doing movement/wellness activities, and 7-OH is banned where I’m going so there’s no easy backup plan. It almost feels like a small rehab window/opportunity.
I guess I’m posting because I need accountability and support from people who understand this specific addiction. If anyone has experience transitioning from heavy 7-OH use to Suboxone successfully, especially with timing/dosing/what to expect the first 24–48 hours, I’d really appreciate hearing from you.
I’m scared, but I’m finally more scared of staying stuck.