I hate being married sometimes
My husband is verbally/emotionally abusive. Anytime he feels down about himself he insults me so I can feel as miserable as he is. I married him 3 years ago. I used to love holidays, but he has ruined them for me by picking fights or getting drunk and angry. He drinks daily. When he’s extremely upset, he throws furniture and punches holes in the walls. He claims to have ADHD, but sometimes I think he’s actually bipolar. He talks badly about most people behind their back, maybe except his friends. He’s terrible with money, we have a 10+ year age gap (he’s older) yet he had no assets before he married me (our house, which my credit qualified us to get). He is always complaining and nagging, especially about food/cooking. I cook once a week for the whole week and he’s the only person to ever say my food isn’t good. His mom is a great cook and now all of a sudden he doesn’t like her food either. I think he’s going through a mid-life crisis where he orders take out and drinks like crazy. I want to say, he was crazy during the dating phase and I thought I could handle it, but in marriage it has gotten worse. We now have 2 small children and I wish I left the first time we broke up during dating.
On the flip side…he’s an involved father. He got a therapist because of me. He’s a passionate person and always lets me know when he’s upset instead of hiding it like some men. When times are good they are REALLY good. But when they are bad they are REALLY bad.
I don’t know what I’m asking for here. I’m venting but maybe I’m also looking to see if anyone else is going through what I’m going through.