AIO boutthisorcrazy
Okay so I've been in a relationship for a few years there's been a lot of cheating and "breaks" and just a hard time these last few years, my dad killed himself, then right away found out my mom had really rare bad type of cancer. And she had to get 3 surgeries. I lost my job. it's been rough. And i got diagnosed with BPD and bipolar disorder. And been trying to find the right medication I've changed it 3 times. But I had a manic episode and I did cheat on him. It wasn't emotional or anything and I wasn't sober but before that I found messages of my bf trying to get hookers. That's not an excuse tho. So I told him about the day after. Obviously he flipped called me names kicked me out. Then same night he was hanging out with my friend and a girl he slept with when we were on a break in our house in bed drinking he says nothing ever happened and he thinks my friend is gross. So me and him fought more and more. But we were getting better having sex, and he even made a joke about us having babies then that night I did go on his phone bcuz I wanted to see if he was lying about that night and I found he unblock every single girl that he's fucked or like been a problem in our relationship texted all of them trying to hangout but they all had other shit going on. And he actually hangout with one yesterday in the middle of drunk she's was wasted. And he siad she just went for a drive with him. And he pretty much is telling me I have no right to tell him that's fucked up and not okay because I have been trying to prove to him that I regret what I did and like I'm being loyal but this girl has been in and out of his like he's always secretly texting her all she been a big problem in our relationship and he thinks because of what I did that he aloud to do whatever he wants because "I fucked someone" and that's it's okay but I'm also living and having sex with him and trying to fix our relationship . Am I crazy for thinking it's fucked up and not okay?