u/Brief-Delay-8880

Tell me how you are actually feeling. I care about you

I know I wasn’t ready, I can list out all the things that could have been different, all the ways in which we simply won’t work out. How can I give up so easily on everything else except for you ? I want to be with you ! I want to know you, I want to bring my guard down and feel safe in the way you make me feel safe and grow together. I get it, there’s tons of people out there, but I want YOU.

I miss you too much between messages, I am sorry for becoming so attached to you, I just think you’re wonderful. I wish everything was different, but it’s not, and I’ll be okay. I just needed to cry in the car a little before heading home.

Hey ! Thinking of you this morning, friend. I hope your week brightened up and you are having a good day so far ! Take care of yourself :)

Feeling the urge to text you and ask you about your day, and if I was in a different headspace right now, I would. I hope you are having a great day :) I wish I didn’t miss you so much and that you didn’t cross my mind as often, but I just take a deep breath and keep it pushing.

I recognize we’re in a different phase of our friendship now, but I wish I knew how u were feeling. Esperando oír de ti 🫰🏽

I still miss you in between texts, i still pray for you, and for him. If I ever cross your mind, please pray that I can take all this love I have for you and pour it into myself. I miss you tremendously, and I know I could say it, but I choose not to, I hate that I have to give up on you, I would have been in it for the long run, I feel pathetic for waiting for so long, til something real came along, and I could be tossed aside.

You used to keep me on n my phone the whole day, on my screen talking to you, sending selfies, telling you about my day. I miss that enthusiasm.

Im trying man, focusing on me, praying, I quit smoking, I’ve been hitting the gym consistently for a month now ! Im reading, and listening to people talk about improving self esteem, and personal growth and all of the things I hope will make me better and stronger. Im trying so hard to let go of you, to give up on you, but if im honest, I still hope you will change your mind, that you will realize I am someone worth the effort, someone worth loving, someone who SEES YOU. I want to be there for you, cherish you, cheer you on, help you grow and come into your own. I love you, I am trying so hard not to, but I can’t. You broke me so bad, but I still love you. I apologize for everything, I appreciate you still talking to me, even though you no longer respond with the same enthusiasm, you no longer talk to me as sweet, you don’t say good morning or good night anymore, that’s what he’s for, I hope he realizes the amazing man he has and I hope he continues to make you feel seen.

I hope one day I can be the kind of person who also gets chosen, the kind of guy who is worth putting in the effort, the kind of person who can be more than just a “friend”