You’re probably think i have daddy issues or something like that but I actually have a better relationship with my father than I do with my mother, anyway I’ve always liked older men even since I was younger and the age group has just grown from there. I remember in elementary I had a crush on this fresh out of college music teacher, in middle school I had a crush on my orchestra teacher who was in his early 30’s, and now I’m in high school & I’m stuck only being attracted to men in their 30’s above. Yes, I’m completely aware that this is bad I’m not making any excuses for it. I don’t know why I like them or I’m only attracted to them specifically, a little information about me is I don’t look my age, I could pass for early 20’s this isn’t my opinion this is a fact to be honest I’m alway getting hit on my guys in their 20’s and getting looks by older men. I’ve been in High school relationships before, though they never fulfilled me like an adult relationship does. I find high school relationships really childish personally because, some people can’t drive, they need permission from their parents for everything, and obviously the way the guys look. I acknowledge I’m a high schooler and I’m everything I’m not attracted to myself.
I’ve been in a situation-ship with a man in his 30’s online and he lived in Korea I really hated the online part of our arrangement because I found it immature obviously, though all the other parts where honestly perfect to me. The way he spoke to me I found very attractive, he was more of a dominant man and he gave me the nickname puppy because I guess I act like one, as in I’m energetic yk. I liked his voice, his hair, the moles he had on his face and body, and the way he liked to listen to me when I just wanted to speak. Guys my age have done the same thing but when it was an older man I actually felt like it count. I understand his a pedophile Ik again I’m completely aware of my actions I’m not some girl with daddy issues and want to replace him. I just want a relationship that’s mature enough for me. I’ve always been more mature than kids my age I was forced to grow up faster too iykwim. Maybe that is why I’m attracted to older men but I’m over the situation it happened years ago and I don’t have ptsd anymore. Overall I should just wait till I’m 18 right.