How Do I Convince My Parents To Get Me Help?
A couple years ago when I was certain I showed an alarming amount of symptoms of ADHD, it took me months to build up the courage to tell my mom and dad. The first time I talked about it they brushed me off, and I felt terrible after the conversation I had with them. After that, I didn’t mention it for like around a year.
Recently, I’ve brought it up to my mother again because the symptoms of ADHD only got worse as I progressed through puberty and they’re impacting my ability to do things such as school or even hobbies I enjoy like art, but to me it feels like she disregards these symptoms as me just being lazy or spending too much time online.
I thought my mom would be more understanding, considering my older brother is Autistic and she has spent a long time researching things about Autism, but her doing this to me makes me feel invalidated and I’m lost on what to next.
She also gets mad at me when I display symptoms of ADHD such as forgetting to do basic tasks such as get out my clothes for school, take a shower, brush my teeth, drink water, etc, or I struggle with things such as task paralysis or it being physically impossible for me to focus in some classes, resulting in me getting bad grades (which she complains about.)
ADHD symptoms are also the reason why I was depressed and suicidal throughout 4th and 5th grade. It felt like my brain was constantly seeking stimulation and my day to day life was too mundane to fulfill this need, so I felt like the only way out of this cycle was to just die. I never told my parents about this because I was afraid of being rejected like I was when I talked about ADHD symptoms.
I truly love my parents, but my mom making me feel like I’m finding excuses to be lazy and not do my work or clean my room doesn’t help with the feeling of me being trapped inside my own body for the rest of my life just because my brain cannot function like it’s supposed to.
Any advice is greatly appreciated.