u/BreathNext7194

Lately I keep having these bad thoughts, and it genuinely scares me. I cry myself to sleep almost every night and I just don’t know how much longer I can hold on. I‘m so desperate to just feel love and be loved. And just to be seen. I feel like I keep scaring people away, the ones I love and care about so much.

I haven’t felt like this since high school, which was hell and a nightmare. Whenever I had a bad day, or felt sad about something, I would get so frustrated with how I am, so I would hit myself in the head and scratch my arms so hard so that I could numb the pain from my heart.

I just want to be loved.