I’ve organized them in pairs already (and trisomy something, in blue) and what I think is sex chromosomes (in red).
I don’t have any idea of what order they’re supposed to be in. Ik they’re organized by size but a lot seem to be exactly the same or immeasurably different.
I assume the disorder is trisomy 21 or 22. 21 would be more common ik, but I can’t tell if it’s actually smaller than the other one that would be 22.
I was told by a mod to keep the details away since what I have is nsfw, which makes sense. (Some of yall may remember my past post so hello again). Basically, I was diagnosed with a disability that may prevent me from ever experiencing romantic marriage and starting a family. It’s very successfully treated, but it’s been 5 years since I’ve known I’ve had it and I’ve started treatment, and haven’t seen any results. I’ve been frustrated at god a lot recently, and Christian’s in my life haven’t been very supportive. I’ve also been losing my faith for awhile and this has been no help in that regard.
So then, why does god allow us to experience these things? I’ve been told good will come of it, which I cannot possibly see how that can be true. I’ve been told to get over it because others have it worse. But I can’t seem to wrap my head around why god is all loving but allows senseless suffering. And sure, it probably comes from a purity culture past, which I guess could be tied to sin (I also really struggle to understand why a loving god would allow christians and churches to hurt believers out of believing, if this is the case). But also, it could’ve developed naturally physically, in which case there is no other person to blame.