I (23M) can't cope with lying partner (20F)
Sorry, if this post sounds all over the place and broken.
I'm in a really bad place right now, always has been, kind of but always ignored.
I met this sweet girl in December and on this 16 we're gonna(not) complete 6 months.
She's really loving, forgiving and just nice idk I have shit ton of good things to say about her.
I really love her.
Bad part: She's a liar, has been a liar since the beginning. I can't take this anymore.
We had a shitton of fights because of her behavior and some how I still love her.
I never lied to her even ONCE. Not even one time, okay one time because I was planning her the valentine's week surprise.
So from the start, lied about her past. Yeah it's the past doesn't matter. I have absolutely no problem, it's just that people some times go back to their exes and I wanted to feel safe.
She said you're my first BF, first Kiss, first all that. I can't tell about all that because I had and have no proof of if I was first but she had exes and I wasn't her first BF and first Kiss.
Again, it hurts because it was about trust.
So, lied about all the little things where she didn't even need to, I never understood that part why lie where it is not even needed. It doesn't harm anyone.
She once mentioned she gets the thrill, when I don't find out. Stop it you guys, I'm in love.
Yeah, then later she gave me her Instagram, to make it for the stuff she did. She basically stopped using it, moved to Whatsapp.
Btw these are all(not) lies she told and it's gonna get highlighted, we had shitton of sweet moments.
One time, she visited and stayed at my place. I wanted to check her gallery and she started throwing stuff around, and even my phone. I have her back her phone without checking, she was going batshit crazy. Later said, I had really ugly pics of mine on my gallery, you can check now if you want.
Another time, we almost broke up. Her ex was contacting her back, kind off. I just said delete your telegram with 1 month time limit set. After 2.5 months it still wasn't deleted.
I was now very suspicious, I asked her for the OTP, over the course of one hour I said I will leave if you don't. She deleted her telegram, I never got to read what was on there.
I blocked her, next day she visits me, says sorry hugs me. Yes, I'm in love. I forgave her.
There are many lies, I don't even remember.
She lied to the point where now she wants me to have her whatsapp, yes to make up for it.
So she can say, I came, I stayed, you have my socials, you can't blame me now. Just stop for once.
Recently when she visited. Her whatsapp was logged into my PC. Yesterday I found out, it is still on a different browser.
She's been trying to add her whatsapp on my phone as companion over the phone by some QR. I didn't even ask for it.
I've been reading few of her chats from yesterday. She asked her dad for a watch.
She wanted it from a very long time, her dad couldn't get his hands on it. Because he's not a techy person or that computer guy. I found and bought it yesterday, it's gonna arrive in a few days. I'm gonna gift her, idk as a pre-birthday gift, her birthday is in november lol.
She has also planned a girls trip next month. Has been discussing with her friends the outfits.
Btw we're Indian, kind of conservative but not too much. She's planning to wear those sexy outfits, again people death stare if you wear something like that here. Yeah, not a good place.
I was still okay, I don't wanna ruin her trip. Yeah so I found out she's gonna wear those kind of outfits because I read chats from her friends, when she told me about her trip recently - she said you're my bf, you get to choose what I wear and please don't say, it's your life.
She absolutely would have delayed telling me her trip plan but because she was at my place, I found out.
She has done this before, she never tells her plans when they are getting planned, always later.
She was planning a group couple dance when we were 2 months into the relationship. She strategically slowly told it was a group couple dance and in the start it was only a group dance, she knew from the beginning what it was.
In next two hours she's gonna try again give me her whatsapp and I saw her clear all those chats with her friends about outfits and shopping links.
My hands started shivering and my heart beating fast. I was like, fuck this shit.
I don't know what to do. I was okay with it but again the lies i can't keep taking them.