We have been together over 5 years now, at the start everything felt perfect, moved in together within the first year, I uprooted and moved to a different city away from family, started a new job. Basically starting a new life.
Then she became ill. 2 years of hospital appointments, investigations, therapy, treatment and even surgery. . . I took her for every appointment, cared for her through every breakdown, every sleepless night. Helped her wash and change after surgery.
Now 2 years after being discharged from therapy, all her appointments and treatments, she now has the all clear. The intimacy has almost completely gone.
Ok yes we kiss and cuddle but it feels . . Hollow?
Every time ive tried to make a move for anything more i get shot down. We have had a few talks about intimacy and she assures me she still finds me very attractive and loves me, but what she said and how she acts don't seem to add up. We even spent the bank holiday alone together, went to some nice restaurants, had a nice time. But again was shut down any advancement.
Im constantly bombarded with "i love you" every 5 minutes we are together. But it doesnt feel true anymore
I dont know if I can salvage anything, or even if its possible, or that I even want to at this point. ?
Please be brutally honest