I am so fucking pissed about everything that I’ve been through and how I’ve been treated after it happend.
feel free to share if you feel the same.
I was molested by my father and homeless in highschool after being psychically abused by my sister even after she almost killed me and my family didn’t fucking care or take my side they only created more lies.
For example at the time being before she jumped me, my family would always say that I was the problem and diagnose me with 25 diffrent made of mental illnesses or say that I was “hard to deal with” THEN she literally tries to kill me and leaves me so bruised up you can’t deny the situation and then years later my mother tells me the narrative that I now recognize my family is saying which is that because of my “ocd” I was washing my hands in the washroom for an hour so she decided to beat me so badly that I was passed out and left bruised up. Even though I didn’t fight back!
But you know what’s really funny guys it’s all a lie! and I have proof.
they say I was washing my hands for an hour, which is a lie because I was using my phone up to the moment she jumped me taking selfies at a bakery in the washroom down the street etc… so thats a complete lie! They literally just made up her side to the story
Then the worst part is at the end of highschool When I was being abused at home I was left in a vulnerable position where I had no one to defend me back then.
I over shared my trauma on a college application and when I went to the small school I was targeted by a professor and group of men in my male only major they told me to my face that they wanted to “use me as a party favour” at a diddy party and that they hope he gets out of prison so they can use their degree to get to a diddy party.
I experienced so much sexual harassment at that fucking shit program but made it out without any psychical touch trauma which was a god send. I was told that they don’t have an hr department and that if you want to report it you go to the press or the police which isn’t an option.
I’m at the stage when I’m so fucking enraged with what I went through all of it!
The threats the lies, mostly my mother putting me into a vunerable position for people to take advantage of me.
I was really targeted as a teenager coming out of highschool depressed and I hate that.
Now I just feel so angry!
Angry at every adult who didn’t report the signs angry at every adult who would literally bully me at school and tell me they don’t care that I’m being abused at home sexually and psychically.
Every adult who tried to attach labels to me or say I was the issue I feel so fucking angry at this shit
Specially what happened with me is there was layers of people trying to take advantage of me basically everytime I tried to get help someone tried to abuse me!
After my sister beat me and didn’t go to jail for it(I didn’t report it to the police cause I was afraid she’d get raped in prison)
My dad targeted me and sexually assaulted me in my sleep THE DAY BEFORE I left for college.
He purposely did it cause he thought no one would believe me after the drama with my sister.
My mom didn’t care!
He’s always been so weird though!
I’m so tired of going to therapists and having them suck too!
Last summer I went to a therapist and she fucking told me that she wouldn’t care if her dad molested her if her mom used to work at xxx insert university my mom worked at a university like ten years ago.
I’m tired of having to talk about things clinically so I don’t “seem” crazy I think it’s more strange if she shit doesn’t piss me off.
I am just so fucking angry at the fact that this happened to me I don’t even know what to do with all this anger.