As an adult, I had a core group of college friends for over 10 years, and we went through everything together - career struggles, relationships, family issues, and health (physical and mental). But last year, when my mom was ill and hospitalized for a month, they didn’t show up in person even though they lived nearby; they were only available on calls, which felt like I was just giving updates rather than being supported. I got upset and lashed out, and after we got mom home I told them not to come at all. It had already started to feel like a friendship of convenience, and going through something so serious without them made it worse. When I later asked why they didn’t visit, one said she had her own family issues, and another said we weren’t “family” and spoke about boundaries, which really hurt. I tried to resolve things and meet, but they refused to meet. Months later, one of them invited me to her engagement and tried to reconnect, and I did go. Later, when slowly we started talking again I couldn’t pretend everything was normal without addressing what happened, so I said I couldn’t continue like that. Since then, they’ve stopped reaching out, and while I miss them deeply, what hurts most is that no one is willing to acknowledge or talk about it. One is getting married and moving to Europe, and another is seriously dating now. Looks like they don't need me. I feel like texting them. I miss them. Should I?
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