u/Both-Routine-3862

So for context i’m an 18F who is about to graduate high school, and everyone is talking about grad parties and all those festivities of sort, but i genuinely feel no excitement towards having one because i have such low self esteem and hate attention. I was diagnosed a year ago, and honestly i never really thought that adhd was something that i had until then, when a lot of things and habits i’ve done my whole life suddenly didn’t feel so normal to others. I really really want to have a grad party and my parents are so excited to host one, but i feel so so awful and embarrassed about it, and to top it all off, all my other friends have already sent out invites and sorts to everyone, but i really just feel like since i’m so sensitive for rejection, people are going to judge me. I don’t want to be the center of attention, but i feel like i’m going to regret it if i don’t. what should i do?