Guys, one question.
I know these songs talk about totally different topics and hit differently and have different atmospheres, but which one do you like to replay more often and why?
Every answer will be highly appreciated...
Please, I want to grab your attention to hear my story if you like:
I am a very simple boy from Bangladesh. My mother wanted me to learn to sing when I was in class 5, and then I bought a 'Harmonium', a classic Bengali instrument for producing harmonic sounds. She hired a teacher who taught me the basics. She told my mom that if I learn like it, I would never get the confidence to perform in front of so many people.
I had zero interest in it, but my mom's interest in it, that's what I care about. So, my mom enrolled me in a local song club where many students go there to learn Bengali songs.
There were only 4 boys,s but only one of them was there to learn music, and the other 3 were playing "Tabla", a tool for making drum sounds by hitting with fingers, and 30 girls at my age or younger. At that time, I was in class 6, and the covid just going away
There I saw a girl who was one of the club's experienced members. She became my life's first crush. But I didn't crush at that time, after many days passed with shame, and I crushed on her so hard. I used to go there in wednesday, and that time was beautiful.
But my lack of interest held me back, and Tuberculosis in my throat stopped me from going further. I don't remember when was the last time I saw her in that place.
Then time passes, and finally, after 8-9 months, one of my cousins gave me my crush's Tiktok account. At that time, I hated that platform so much that I had never installed it in my mom's phone, but she was the reason (I know it is over-childish). I started following her and liked every post by my fake account.
But I wanted to see her in real time, and I became so obsessed with this idea, though she lived just in the next village, I couldn't see her amusing face, in festivals I saw her but for just an instance, and she disappears completely.
overtime i thoughtIi made a figure of love in my mind and started to realize that I stopped liking her and became just a freak who follows her on social media. My friends started to say that I should just tell my inner feelings towards her. I was so insecure about my face, and most importantly, she probably forgot who I am.
One day, I learnt that she had an affair with one of those 'Tabla' players, and I couldn't accept that thing, thinking that a girl like her could never love someone like that, fat-bro. I told myself it was just a lie, but after 7-8 months, I wanted to focus on building my career and wanted to shift my focus from there.
I realized that I didn't like that person. I hold a statue of her and worshiped in my heart. I didn't know her personality much, and it can be changed over time, but I liked her for her god-given face.
Then I unfollowed her from my TikTok account and deleted that ID, which was made just for her, unfollowed her from Instagram, and canceled the friend request from Facebook
I wasted my very valuable time, but those memories of thinking of her still hurt me and give me a silent pain that I couldn't overcome.
At last, I want to say that she deserved better.
Thanks if you have read this....