I’m tired. I am a 22 M and this is actually my first ever post on anything. It’s kinda hard for me to write down how I’m feeling but I’ll try my best. I as I am right now hate myself. Lately it feels as I’m just going through the days not accomplishing anything. It feels as if nothing is even worth doing anymore.
I am just exhausted all the time. Even on the days where I do absolutely nothing. Also I tend to space out nowadays. It’s hard for me to get anything done. I am absolutely failing in uni and at work I just feel like a robot. The worst part is that I’m scared to talk to anyone about it.
It’s hard for me to write this even now, online. Honestly I’m teary eyed and it’s late but I can’t take it anymore. I hate hiding this from my family, they are the whole reason I even try still but I am too scared to show them this side of me. I tend to just smile and give short answers to those around me.
I used to care. There used to be stuff that made me happy. Nowadays it’s hard for me to show emotions. Honestly I have no friends, I pretty much just talk to family. The only things that bring me joy anymore are tv/anime. TBH it’s nerdy but I can just kind of lose myself in what I’m watching and has done a lot for me recently. It’s kind of all I do anymore when I get home.
What do I do? How do I explain this to anyone? How do I tell my parents that I hate myself? I don’t want to trouble them. But how do I go on? I hate what I do. I hate school and work. I just want to stay in bed and watch what I like. Am I just lazy? I don’t know who I am anymore.
I would really appreciate your guys help.