Do people ask if you’re having a good time even when you are because you don’t show it?
I get asked “are you having fun” a lot when I’m out because I don’t do the normal people things like smile or show enthusiasm.
I have to remind myself to smile like when i’m watching a band, or to bop my head or whatever. I can just enjoy standing and focusing on the music, but this seems to bother other people because of my perceived lack of enthusiasm. Then I have to mask enjoyment in a physical way, even though I don’t necessarily enjoy doing that.
Sometimes I just forget that normal people don’t have this issue, and then I feel I have to overcompensate just to “seem” normal. I can tell my friends want to see me enjoy stuff and sometimes it’s simply exhausting to “act.”
Does anyone else deal with this or is this just my dual diagnosis high-functioning autism coming into play?