In a mood again I guess. I feel like my sole purpose in life is to find real, lasting love. I don’t care about being rich, popular, or anything superficial. My only purpose for being alive is to love and be loved in return. Even if I had nothing, if I had my soulmate/love of my life then I’d never need anything else.
I’d feel happy, complete. I would give my heart and soul to that person, everything that I have and am. I’d do anything for their happiness, smiles and laughs. I love intensely and deeply once I feel secure and yet… I feel as if I’m cursed to never be loved in return. No one ever stays, they all lose interest eventually. No matter how much I give, it’s never enough. I simply can’t be loved, at least not for long.
It feels like a cruel joke from the universe honestly. I exist for love, and it’s the one thing I’ll never get. I don’t get to find a true match in this life, it’s just not meant for me. No matter how much I want and need it. Doomed to always feel empty and alone, giving away pieces of myself until there’s nothing left.