u/BookEmbarrassed5484

Most days I wonder through life .
I’m the girl that people pass and don’t notice
I’m not pretty but I’m kind
I love to much to hard
I wear my trauma like an invisibility cloak
Shielding me from the pain of the many faces and words in my brain
Disconnect , it has always been easy for me
So now as move forward
I have to learn to connect
To feel
To break when my heart tells me to
I think I much prefer the invisibility of my pain , where my heart and my mind a fighting everyday to get back up
Another heartbreak, another betrayal, smile they don’t like girls who cry
I cry alot
So I’ll cut the invisible cloak and I’ll hide my face because showing nothing is better than torture of being alone

I feel like my mind is a tsunami
Crashing and spinning
Anticipation out of control
Did you notice it
Did you notice me
Honestly it doesn’t matter
But I can’t help but wonder
You look like someone my soul once knew

Do you hear my cries at night when the rest of the worlds asleep .
From the front porch looking in there’s probably a lot you can see
A broken girl trying to keep the pieces together
Do you hear my children laughing
Or see the tears that I try to hide
Because when I’m alone
When the night fades into darkness lately I’ve noticed with a flick of a lighter or the sound of a video , we may be strangers .
But in the darkest hour you’ve sat next to me clueless but there .

Birds sing as I feel the quite hum of the morning air
I hear you
I see you
I noticed
I look beyond the trees and see someone gentle .
I look beyond the stars and try to understand you .
You don’t owe me anything , I don’t know you .
But my quiet curiosity for the man beyond the trees grows day by day .
We live our lives side by side but I don’t even know your name .